As per requested by Liz Liu over a 3-D turtle...i failed to finish due to loss of interest. I have however, almost nearly finished a female anatomy. Really I'm sort of proud of myself. Bleh...but its not perfect yet, so I won't post it quite yet. Her breasts are nice though hehe...

Umm, i just don't feel like getting up today...and as i don't have to i wont! haha

bored...so there!

I think I need a larger computer. I just like the monitors to be bigger so I will actually work with zeal and excitement. No offense to what I've got now, but I want a bigger one. That's all.

So...recently I went rock climbing with a friend and we were stuck in the rain getting there. It was really pouring a lot and we were sharing his umbrella. I think we gave up on the dry feet concept since Pittsburgh potholes are neither small or shallow. We were sort of lost for a bit, but it was really fun at the same time. I mean we had planned out this event, but not the rain, which caused wetness and joy. The rock climbing was really fun! It really helps with upper body and lower body strength, and while I only succeeded twice (i am that weak) it was a lot of fun just trying it out and learning the ropes (literally we learned about ropes)

Went to a potluck yesterday. I wish my house was bigger and I didn't have to pay much. But that would be a dream world. Anyway at the potluck the room was devided girls to boys. I sat in the middle and was relatively bored of both conversations. Girls talk of...something...hehe i wasn't really paying attention. Why are guys so weird? They spoke of programming phone games and all got really excited. Maybe I'm the weird one....crap.

I had a dream about my old house, but it had become very Japanese-like. It was gorgeous and nice and everyone loved it. Sigh...

I haven't done anything artistic in awhile, i think i shall.

that's all...

The Summer

Sigh...the summer.

Let's see what have I done? Let's try to keep this in order, lest the confusion create inaccurate accounts...
May-
Moved in to new house (clean, fix, start utilities)
Zoo
Aviary
Strip District
Downtown Arts Festival
Parties (i'm not doing enough of this)
Bonfires
BBQ- Memorial Day
Museum
Movies (Up, Terminator)

Never mind about order, there is no order. Surprisingly I've being quite a good girl of late. I don't agree with this at all. I am prepared to go out and find some mischief soon, or I will explode.

Ahem...now to list things I ought to do. I'm a big fan of lists...
AIR (Artist Image Resource)
Modeling (3-D i mean)
Partying (yes, yes)

Fail

I'm not happy right now, too many responsibilities and too many voices telling what a poor job I'm doing. Literally, the situation is this...

I fix a problem, momentarily proud of myself, suddenly another complaint is erupted, I fix it, less proud, more complaints, more depressing, more and more. I don't think anyone understands that I am trying to fix all these problems myself. Its my money, my time and my energy I'm wasting for you damn asses. I don't want to hear how much I have failed again. I can't even be happy with what I have because at the end of the day, instead of the pride i used to feel towards this place, all i see is disappointment after disappointment. There's always something wrong, here, there, everywhere.

Honestly, I can't bear to look at anyone right now. I'm tired of looking happy, I'm tired of being okay. I need to be left alone.

Maybe its time for me to move on.

Update on Life

Looking back at my first entry I think I've accomplished a lot from that list; among some other things. Mostly though its growing up too fast that scares me, since accomplishing these tasks has become more of a reality than a future plan.

Let's see, I've gotten an internship (lucky!) I worked for Yinzcam, an interface application for interactive phones for the Penguins. That was very interesting, since I felt I contributed to an actual company. A reality check for me seeing my work on the big screen, seeing it being used with my designs and then having it all ripped apart....apparently we were only the "pilot" for yinzcam, and after we did all the prototypes, they removed most of our original designs. However, my application designs are still there!! on the phones! mostly the website is gone, which is my largest disappointment.

I've made a website! Its
http://www.contrib.andrew.cmu.edu/~angelaw/
Most of the images are pretty old though, so hopefully, I'll be able to post more updates to improve it...Possibly find a job? I realize a website is essential for an artist in my category. Yes, category. I think I best term myself a commercial artist. I would like to work for companies and studios, but I prefer to create my own work based on fantasy and creativity. Not to criticize, but I found working for others a bit boring, limited and straining on time. However, one must sacrifice for stability right? My goals for my website will be adding more categories and more work. I need my work to reflect technique, commercial range, style, creativity and above all passion. Keeping these in mind, I think my summer will be quite busy.

I still worry about school tuition and finances, especially since I got a new house and am charge of all bills and rent. Yes, me, who would have thought. I brought it on an impulse, so happy with my decision! It was a lot more work than I would have ever imagined. I wont' bore you with the details but lets just say it involved painting, hammering and plaster, nails windex, soap and much more. The worst part was finding housemates...after several bad decisions and terrible disasters I've finally settled for some cool people. Honestly, I think I must have a guardian angel out there, I've been so lucky. Or maybe I've just gained experience....

All part of growing up

Anyway, I realize this is getting pretty long so I'll just list my goals.

-Fix up website, make awesome
-Continue posting on my sketch blog
-Get an art related job and make $$
-Get the house in order!!
-Make money
-Save money
-Graduate on time
-Wean myself off meat and dairy products and become a vegan. Yes, vegan, not vegetarian I'm going hardcore (Completely health based)

That's about it for now. Hopefully I don't get lazy and stop posting after a week.

snake woman Update

I was told to add color so

snake woman sketch

Here's what I've been up to.
Done as a sketch for last week's CHOW. I didn't get to finish, but I'd like to still finish it.




Started as a silk screen print, but I think I'll make it a digital painting...