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Hello Internet.

I don't know why it's so hard. But its hard for me. It's freaking hard! It appears that since graduating from Carnegie Mellon a mere six months ago I have completely forgotten the fine crafted art of STUDYING!

I really need to pass my driver's knowledge test tomorrow, but all I can think of is doodling and creating masterpieces that I probably won't because as soon as I start on them I'll get bored and wander to other things....

sigh. I wish I were more focused and not so easily distracted. I know I keep saying I need discipline, but that's all I've done. Said things. And the actions that I have kept my word to are really just stalling methods. Like this for example.

Someone once posed a question to an artist I admire. "Do you have to be a good person to be a good artist?" At first I read it and thought it was silly. But then I thought about it. A lot of people who others admire are humble nice sweet and quietly talented people. I'm not sure I fall into that category. I know I'm a bit too silly for anyone to really take me seriously. And I know that's because I don't take myself seriously. For one thing, my head is full of silly thoughts and want of a fun time. I think I'm just afraid I have nothing to give...

Okay. Well as I have let out my frustrations I will get to it!