Goals. Goals and more goals.
Okay. So in order to get back on track and cease this random year I've been having I must make some goals for myself.
The most important is to move out of my parents house. I am not going to end up being one of those artists bumming on family forever especially not as the basement resident.
In order to move out I must then find a job that pays enough to survive. Preferably in the city where transportation is easy.
In order to get that job I must advertise myself until someone deems me worthy to offer a position. So somehow must whore myself to the public eye and show them how wonderful and talented and irresistible I am.
In order to make the above illusion...I must create in myself someone wonderful, talented and irresistible. This will be hard because I am lacking in many of the categories.
In order to fulfill any of those characteristics I must CHANGE! Get focused and DISCIPLINED. In other words, start working, hard.
In order to do that I must first block out the incessant and constant distractions that plague my attention.
Yup.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
OH, Now I see
Taking a step back....
Something important I've realized is that I'm too impulsive. I easily commit and jump into things I haven't thought about at all.
Dad told me by the time you're ten, your character would have been developed and your life is based on your ten year old self (some parent read an article and freaked out about her children, so she told my dad).
When I was ten...I was pretty terrible. For some reason I got a lot of detentions, failed countless exams and terrorized my teacher. I think I was going through a phase (a three year one) where I would do terrible things at school. When I was home, I was pretty much the angel faced good girl that no one ever thought to blame. Thinking about it now I'm really embarrassed. However, I can't help but wonder now, if those characteristics stuck.
Maybe back then I wasn't properly socially integrated ? I wanted attention, but I would also get bored easily (which is why i never paid attention in class) which is why I guess I acted out.
I wonder why my parents didn't watch me closer...
Mom told me that she always thought I was unpredictable and unstable. Then compared me to a friend of mine who I always thought was the perfect asian girl. I guess I am the opposite.
Something important I've realized is that I'm too impulsive. I easily commit and jump into things I haven't thought about at all.
Dad told me by the time you're ten, your character would have been developed and your life is based on your ten year old self (some parent read an article and freaked out about her children, so she told my dad).
When I was ten...I was pretty terrible. For some reason I got a lot of detentions, failed countless exams and terrorized my teacher. I think I was going through a phase (a three year one) where I would do terrible things at school. When I was home, I was pretty much the angel faced good girl that no one ever thought to blame. Thinking about it now I'm really embarrassed. However, I can't help but wonder now, if those characteristics stuck.
Maybe back then I wasn't properly socially integrated ? I wanted attention, but I would also get bored easily (which is why i never paid attention in class) which is why I guess I acted out.
I wonder why my parents didn't watch me closer...
Mom told me that she always thought I was unpredictable and unstable. Then compared me to a friend of mine who I always thought was the perfect asian girl. I guess I am the opposite.
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