Taking a step back....
Something important I've realized is that I'm too impulsive. I easily commit and jump into things I haven't thought about at all.
Dad told me by the time you're ten, your character would have been developed and your life is based on your ten year old self (some parent read an article and freaked out about her children, so she told my dad).
When I was ten...I was pretty terrible. For some reason I got a lot of detentions, failed countless exams and terrorized my teacher. I think I was going through a phase (a three year one) where I would do terrible things at school. When I was home, I was pretty much the angel faced good girl that no one ever thought to blame. Thinking about it now I'm really embarrassed. However, I can't help but wonder now, if those characteristics stuck.
Maybe back then I wasn't properly socially integrated ? I wanted attention, but I would also get bored easily (which is why i never paid attention in class) which is why I guess I acted out.
I wonder why my parents didn't watch me closer...
Mom told me that she always thought I was unpredictable and unstable. Then compared me to a friend of mine who I always thought was the perfect asian girl. I guess I am the opposite.
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