omg. this is it! Ian McCaig
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An online diary of my ups and downs, my motivations and procrastinations. My way of life so I can always remember it and reread my mistakes and success. My hope is that I can look back on these pages without regret.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Red Riding Hood
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Goals and steps to take.
Goals. Goals and more goals.
Okay. So in order to get back on track and cease this random year I've been having I must make some goals for myself.
The most important is to move out of my parents house. I am not going to end up being one of those artists bumming on family forever especially not as the basement resident.
In order to move out I must then find a job that pays enough to survive. Preferably in the city where transportation is easy.
In order to get that job I must advertise myself until someone deems me worthy to offer a position. So somehow must whore myself to the public eye and show them how wonderful and talented and irresistible I am.
In order to make the above illusion...I must create in myself someone wonderful, talented and irresistible. This will be hard because I am lacking in many of the categories.
In order to fulfill any of those characteristics I must CHANGE! Get focused and DISCIPLINED. In other words, start working, hard.
In order to do that I must first block out the incessant and constant distractions that plague my attention.
Yup.
Okay. So in order to get back on track and cease this random year I've been having I must make some goals for myself.
The most important is to move out of my parents house. I am not going to end up being one of those artists bumming on family forever especially not as the basement resident.
In order to move out I must then find a job that pays enough to survive. Preferably in the city where transportation is easy.
In order to get that job I must advertise myself until someone deems me worthy to offer a position. So somehow must whore myself to the public eye and show them how wonderful and talented and irresistible I am.
In order to make the above illusion...I must create in myself someone wonderful, talented and irresistible. This will be hard because I am lacking in many of the categories.
In order to fulfill any of those characteristics I must CHANGE! Get focused and DISCIPLINED. In other words, start working, hard.
In order to do that I must first block out the incessant and constant distractions that plague my attention.
Yup.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
OH, Now I see
Taking a step back....
Something important I've realized is that I'm too impulsive. I easily commit and jump into things I haven't thought about at all.
Dad told me by the time you're ten, your character would have been developed and your life is based on your ten year old self (some parent read an article and freaked out about her children, so she told my dad).
When I was ten...I was pretty terrible. For some reason I got a lot of detentions, failed countless exams and terrorized my teacher. I think I was going through a phase (a three year one) where I would do terrible things at school. When I was home, I was pretty much the angel faced good girl that no one ever thought to blame. Thinking about it now I'm really embarrassed. However, I can't help but wonder now, if those characteristics stuck.
Maybe back then I wasn't properly socially integrated ? I wanted attention, but I would also get bored easily (which is why i never paid attention in class) which is why I guess I acted out.
I wonder why my parents didn't watch me closer...
Mom told me that she always thought I was unpredictable and unstable. Then compared me to a friend of mine who I always thought was the perfect asian girl. I guess I am the opposite.
Something important I've realized is that I'm too impulsive. I easily commit and jump into things I haven't thought about at all.
Dad told me by the time you're ten, your character would have been developed and your life is based on your ten year old self (some parent read an article and freaked out about her children, so she told my dad).
When I was ten...I was pretty terrible. For some reason I got a lot of detentions, failed countless exams and terrorized my teacher. I think I was going through a phase (a three year one) where I would do terrible things at school. When I was home, I was pretty much the angel faced good girl that no one ever thought to blame. Thinking about it now I'm really embarrassed. However, I can't help but wonder now, if those characteristics stuck.
Maybe back then I wasn't properly socially integrated ? I wanted attention, but I would also get bored easily (which is why i never paid attention in class) which is why I guess I acted out.
I wonder why my parents didn't watch me closer...
Mom told me that she always thought I was unpredictable and unstable. Then compared me to a friend of mine who I always thought was the perfect asian girl. I guess I am the opposite.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Bloop
So, before any of you all start getting judgy about the fact I haven't updated artwork in a forever. I'll post some model stuff from the past few weeks. Now mind you, usually I would scan and touch up these pics, but I was working with a camera with terrible lighting, and no amount of photoshop adjustments would have improved it.



Now, its not just model work I've been doing. So there are more things coming soon. I promise.
I'm kind of surprised people read this weird thing of mind. Next topic. Love.



Now, its not just model work I've been doing. So there are more things coming soon. I promise.
I'm kind of surprised people read this weird thing of mind. Next topic. Love.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Cough.
Sigh... Jon Foster. Is. Amazing. I absolutely despise him. He is a combination of Eric Fortune, James Jean and Jason Chan.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Grum
Well I suppose I should tell some news about this week. I took a week off to finish working on my portfolio. I got about two new pieces and working on finishing my old unfinished work. Things I've noticed is this..
My poor brother is yelled at a lot. This brings back my own flashbacks of being yelled at. Oh, its quite traumatizing. Poor lad, I wish I could help him. I understand the importance of getting good grades in his position, but if you've met such a terrible Waterloo (Chemistry) then what? I mean he's already getting tutelage (this means getting tutor taught right?) and he's trying very hard. He's not like me, (sneaky/bad/angel-faced/finding trouble) no, he's a very honest boy with no bad habits. :(
Its not fair for him. He goes to one of those high schools that is filled with asian nerd kids, being bred and trimmed by tiger moms galore. How can he compete with that?! This is not an asian country! I wish these asian people would stop making America that way. Its gotten so bad that these asian families all end up living in the same communities all right next door to each other and the tutor just bounces from house to house! What kind of living style is that?
What is going to happen is all the asian girls are going to marry white guys because they are nothing like their families and there will be no girls left for the asian guys. The asian guys will then all die out and a new era of half breeds will roam freely.
I will make a pact with myself never to become a "tiger mom". No. I will be a cool mom. With a sports car...I'm actually just never having kids. There. That was easy.
My poor brother is yelled at a lot. This brings back my own flashbacks of being yelled at. Oh, its quite traumatizing. Poor lad, I wish I could help him. I understand the importance of getting good grades in his position, but if you've met such a terrible Waterloo (Chemistry) then what? I mean he's already getting tutelage (this means getting tutor taught right?) and he's trying very hard. He's not like me, (sneaky/bad/angel-faced/finding trouble) no, he's a very honest boy with no bad habits. :(
Its not fair for him. He goes to one of those high schools that is filled with asian nerd kids, being bred and trimmed by tiger moms galore. How can he compete with that?! This is not an asian country! I wish these asian people would stop making America that way. Its gotten so bad that these asian families all end up living in the same communities all right next door to each other and the tutor just bounces from house to house! What kind of living style is that?
What is going to happen is all the asian girls are going to marry white guys because they are nothing like their families and there will be no girls left for the asian guys. The asian guys will then all die out and a new era of half breeds will roam freely.
I will make a pact with myself never to become a "tiger mom". No. I will be a cool mom. With a sports car...I'm actually just never having kids. There. That was easy.
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