Here!

Okay okay! due to many many pushy people, both on conceptart and razorbjc, I fixed her a bit. I'm so sorry I liked having her neck weird, it added intensity even though it was not anatomically correct BLEH!

It's a bit rough but i'm getting scared of not doing it and liking the original too much.

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Some more update to the unhappy girl... I made her bust smaller and changed her right art. I know her shoulders are too wide and weird collarbone thing going on. I'll figure it out soon. I posted this for critiques on concept art and got a lot of pushy people.

On a more personal level I ended things with the boy. Nearly got stranded in the city because I couldn't find a ride and it was Christmas. Surprisingly I don't feel too bad. I will definitely take this relationship as a life lesson.

more more updates.

More update after a few glasses of wine. I think personally I'm a white wine person. A nice Chardonnay will make my day.

some updates

Here are some updates I made for the "unhappy bride". I'm thinking she's more of a witch now since her tones are all greenish. This is alright with me, since my idea was to make her kind of creepy anyway. I suppose I still haven't gotten it out of my system.


This last one is my tea and lingerie concept. I've got her partly skin toned and am planning on something light and fluffy for the background. Maybe some hard colors in her body since I don't want her washed out.

Anyway, the school has more issues with the teachers. I wish everyone would get along. Or if it's your "JOB" to do something, than do it. I suppose immature adults are still quite available even in this wretched economy. I wonder about them sometimes. I should not have left today to work out.

haha

Today I had the day off. I wandered around my house with no makeup no nice clothes...ahh I think I really needed this break. So contrary to all WIW images. Here is one where it is not showing off what nicety one wears, but what I wear...all the time.

because.

Here is a start up of my unhappy bride

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I'm beginning to realize that my posts are pretty boring. All I ever do is complain and whine about how unhappy I am. Or I'll make these lists of random stupid things to do. Unfortunately, that is how I spend my time with writing. In complain mode.

Maybe I should only write when I do have something to say.

Having said all this, I will now discuss my holiday plans. I must make Christmas cards for all the students. Buy little gifts for my friends and the teachers. Having no "original" ideas for a gift I will either look online or go to soho for these treats. My last expensive gift $$$ wasn't very much liked much to my disappointment. Rather it was criticized and returned. So. I guess my talent for getting gifts is limited. Or maybe it was just that one particular person. Probably the later.

However, despite previous failures I will be getting chocolates. Primarily the "No Chewing Allowed" chocolates for the teachers and Alyssa.

Asian Music Video (Parody)

I want to make an asian music parody with a fusion of western culture.
Things to include when making this...
-love triangle
-several deaths
-blindness/maiming
-evil ex girlfriend
-betrayal
-zombies

I think this would make an excellent asian music video.

some randome progress...

Well this is my rendition of Ruby Slippers, Golden Tears. I thought it sounded super artsy but now I realize I did not create something that would live up to the name. An alright sketch, but I see too many flaws to continue it. I'll just use this one as a motivation for another version I'll make. Just thought to present it though.
Oh Dad, why can't you just be proud of your transportation challenged daughter so she can stop stressing about things? My monkey king is very boring.

:P

Hello Internet.

I don't know why it's so hard. But its hard for me. It's freaking hard! It appears that since graduating from Carnegie Mellon a mere six months ago I have completely forgotten the fine crafted art of STUDYING!

I really need to pass my driver's knowledge test tomorrow, but all I can think of is doodling and creating masterpieces that I probably won't because as soon as I start on them I'll get bored and wander to other things....

sigh. I wish I were more focused and not so easily distracted. I know I keep saying I need discipline, but that's all I've done. Said things. And the actions that I have kept my word to are really just stalling methods. Like this for example.

Someone once posed a question to an artist I admire. "Do you have to be a good person to be a good artist?" At first I read it and thought it was silly. But then I thought about it. A lot of people who others admire are humble nice sweet and quietly talented people. I'm not sure I fall into that category. I know I'm a bit too silly for anyone to really take me seriously. And I know that's because I don't take myself seriously. For one thing, my head is full of silly thoughts and want of a fun time. I think I'm just afraid I have nothing to give...

Okay. Well as I have let out my frustrations I will get to it!

Thanksgiving is upon us!

Dear Blog,

I wonder if it is really necessary for Thanksgiving in my family. Just saying its going to be awkward. I don't really mind, but I wish we could be like those family members me and my dad sometimes see at restaurants. All together, talking, laughing...the whole enchilada.

Well, I suppose this Thanksgiving will be no different. Although it will give me a chance to accomplish some things that I have not had time to do.

1. Paint my room green!
2. Rearrange my room (someone once told me that someone's room tells a lot about the person. So far my room is very cramped and cluttered) Time to shove all the furniture to the walls and leave some open space in the middle. What would that say about me?
3. Go shopping for clothes. Currently I am living on one pair of skinny jeans because my other jeans are "unprofessional" says dad. Well guess its time to get slacks and skirts! Throw in some shirts and whatnot I mean it is Black Friday!

I suppose no art related topics are up for this weekend as I am very busy relaxing and buying.

Movies to watch while relaxing: Little Mermaid, Bambi, Pinocchio, Dumbo, Cinderella, Swiss Family Robinson...I think that's all. Any other suggestions?

Food to make: Turkey (i have no control over this) pasta of angel hair zucchini and creamy tomato sauce, mashed potatoes, and maybe something else.

Alcohol to drink: wine and vodka.

Some Pictures...Finally

Well I realized I've been complaining a lot lately...or just rambling on about life stuff. So I thought I'd actually post some work I'd done a few months ago. Of course some are "incomplete" because I lost interest, but I thought I might as well get some stuff up while I'm remembering it.


This one here is my Wizard of Oz. I actually finished this one. Though a bit generic, I'm still pretty happy about it.

And of course, my elephant. Barfing up sweets is the way to go! I finished this one, much to my own chagrin.
Here is one I did for a character contest on conceptart. Of course I didn't finish...but this is one that I almost finished, so up it goes.

Ambitions and Reasonings...

I think its a really good thing I decided to have this blog that no one really reads. I just have stuff to say sometimes and I need to vent it as humorously as possible. At least, that is how my few viewers have commented... "oh Angela, you're blog is so funny, it makes me laugh"

I think this is good, because I like to make people laugh and the people I'm around now are my professional co-workers and my dad. Dry humor all the way babe. Also I don't think my dad understands most of my jokes. It takes a lot of effort and humiliation to make him laugh. Apparently, he used to laugh a lot in his younger days...I don't know what changed that...but for future reference and dating purposes, I will only settle for a guy that has a sense of humor!

Ahem! anyway, so the reason for today's topic is: taking art classes in the city.
I'm not ready to hang up my artist days, duh, far from it! In fact I don't even think I've really started my artist time. So I've decide to take one or two more classes in the city! I'm really excited. I bet you all were thinking, "yea right" when I said I wanted to have an exhibition. Well I was serious! I mean I may not have it this year...but in the near future I hope! wow lots of exclamation points huh.

Ugh...Complaints: My computer wacks out when I work with larger images. It is expensive to keep coming to the city like this.

Motivations: meeting new people who are in the art world. Getting a name for myself. Accomplishing something with myself.

I think part of me is really scared that some part of reality is starting to set in. I mean I've always been in school. I've never not been in school. Now I'm working and its growing into a time consuming routine. One that is passing by too quickly. Its already the end of November and I don't think I've done much but my job. It's time to shut up and do stuff.

Plan:
Attend Spring Street Studio Figure Drawing Classes. This is open to the public so I will be able to go in despite the randomness of the timing. I'm really interested in longer poses to work on my technique. I am rusty after all.

Then in January I will go the the Grand Central Academy of Art which a friend recommended. They are hard core rigid and meticulous she said. I'm so excited! Finally I'll learn how to draw properly! I will of course work very hard and hopefully get better!!!

End.

Hi.

Have realized it is dangerous to post things on the Internet... will restrain from doing so. :I

MORE COMPLAINTS!!!
Argh I despise staying home being sick when I have to be home with my mother. It is so frustrating because we are not speaking right now and I cannot come out of my room unless I want to see her stupid face!

Must paint my room green because I am UNMOTIVATED!!

Well weekend plans are weird since a certain someone's birthday celebration was I don't know, POSTPONED!!! after all our efforts...oh well. Forget it, from now on I will be doing things for myself thank you very much!

What do you do when someone calls you a bitch?

Lies and things I did...

Okay. I didn't finish the stupid picture. I got extremely bored with her and now this is all I've done.
Things you may notice that are different: I removed her ears and now she has regular hair which i added a bit more so that she seems more balanced. The sword is now more detailed, but even more boring. I fixed her other eye a bit and oh I added some detail to her outfit.

Things I need to do: Better sword for one thing, it is cliche and boring...which I'm beginning to see in the whole picture. What she's holding in her hand! I had an idea of putting a doll, but now I don't know. The thing in her hair, what is that? Lastly, the background. What should the background be??

Boo...don't reprimand me whoever reads this...Pretty sure this is a dead image.

Goals and other things.

Well looking back on my goals, I think I managed them alright. That is, I did manage to complete most of them. So I'm going to set some new goals today...

-Complete 10-15 pieces of work: In regards to this, I feel they need to have some similar themes or style. I think syrup is a very good example of what I want for some things. In which case I must learn to finish it. Also maybe golden tears ruby slippers, and the clown on the cross piece.

-Finish designing and putting up my website angelaw-studio.com (only after having enough work of course) I forgot how to do it though...so I'll have to beg Alyssa's help again (sheepish) I also have to finish the Montessori website which I am almost done with but now must relearn how to post things.

-Have my own exhibition in New York (also must find people to do this with): This one I'm really excited about since I can finally showcase my work. I'm not sure how people will take it since its not traditional work nor is it very artsy. Instead I would call my work depressive and scary, somewhat haunting. I want the word haunting to evolve into it. Anyway, I figure this would be a good opportunity to get my work out there, rather than only on the web, which it isn't even on...

-get a cat (this one I'm whatever)
-paint my room: green because it seems motivational

-paint the office: blue to soften it up

-get rid of the office lights: they are too bright

-find an art related job for next year: so i can live on my own in the city. I cannot stay here like this.

All in all even if I don't make some of my goals, I'll still be improving myself greatly now. This year has been good so far. Boring, and fun at times, and sometimes sad and painful. I find the hardest times I've been having is being away from Jeff. However, instead of complaining and wasting my time about missing him, I will work to make a name for myself. Back to work then!

TGIF

Dear God,

Thank you for this Friday. If not for this, I may have gone mad from mindless prattle all day. Listening to teachers complain, my father talk about politics and the incomprehensible nagging of children. All of this I do not care about.

My mind is drifting towards faraway places, mostly home in my warm cozy bed of awesomeness, some movies and me bottle of vodka! I wish i had some weed. That would make the weekend a hell of a lot better. Unfortunately, as I do not have the balls to find a dealer, nor the equipment... okay, next trip to New York we're getting some grass! God, I wish to have some weed.

If I had some weed, I would really get into my artwork this weekend! I'm not going to the city, so I'm not obligated to be sober. I'll be at home high off my ass and making very awesome work, that will be both inspiring and original. This of course will only be that way when I am high, off my ass and not sober.

I wish there was some way I could order the stuff online. Like ebay or amazon and even zappos. Today I think i will google drugs in ******** hahah.

Was away just now for 10 minutes because some kid forgot his backpack and we spent the better part of the time looking up and down and around. Honestly, they forget things within the first ten seconds. If I ever had a kid, I would fucking raise it properly. None of this coddling and "feelings" these parents shovel on children. As you can all see I would make an awful parent.

All this aside I believe this weekend will be a relaxing time. With sleeping in, artwork and fooding. Yes, things seems to sound much better.

The days that just won't stop.

Children...the bane and reason for existence. How adorable and horrifying their little voices chime.

Working here has made me realize a lot of things I had take for granted in college. Mainly that I had freedom and time and fun. Who needs responsibility and a schedule? Weekends are fun, but not the only time off. Now they are. Whatever happened to boozing all weekend and sleeping it off Sunday? Poop...

Don't get me wrong, I love the weekends! I get to plan these extravagant get togethers and party with friends and see my boyfriend. I wish that were enough for me.

Maybe I'm just upset at being tied down and having a routine. I'm not ready for routine! I'm ready for action and impulsiveness! I'm ready for the time of my life.

That aside, I've been working on some other things for the school. Here is the mascot an owl.

Some of you may recognize him from last year. I was too short of time to design a better more stern and wise owl, so now we have an adorable unserious creature. Hopefully people still take us seriously.

My dad likes him, but i know we'll have to change him later on.

Still, for now he will be the mascot for our website and paperwork.

Other thoughts...
I hate bananas
I've lost ten pounds i don't know if its because of the bananas
I'm becoming a model citizen!
I'm making a sunwho kung monkey for my next art piece.

Despite some of your unkind thoughts as to me never finishing a piece, i will have you all know I finished the damn shinigami! Just have to figure out copyright issues. Then maybe I'll post it, only i've heard about a lot of work being stolen, so i'm nervous...not that i think it was that fantastic, but still!

update!

I'm still on my banana diet and its shrug. I've lost 3-4 lbs but i don't see it. Anyway here is some update on my shinigami girl. I put it up on conceptart for critiques and someone asked me to give her hips. Ladies and gentlemen, allow me to explain. She is adolescent. An age where no hips no curves are supposed to be there. I wanted to add some sexuality within innocence so lack of clothes. But I wouldn't say that's a turn on. So unless you are a pedophile...

I made her face much more serious above her age sort of thing. So there.

I'm happy to say someone told me this was their favorite drawing that I've done (idea-wise or in general not sure) but it made me happy. I think now that I am focusing on pieces I want, there has definitely been a change in my style and content. I think I'm falling into fairy death themes. We'll see how I develop lol...

Banana and things to say

I despise children...

Today, three teachers were out. One whose daughter is sick, the other had kidney stones and was rushed to the hospital and the third for some ritual about worshiping her husband. I got stuck looking after the little brats and was well taken advantage of. The worst of it being I was peed on by a crying infant while the rest of the kids stood around pointing and laughing... I was so upset I started crying.

Anyway, I'm still working on the banana diet and well, I haven't seen any changes still. I don't know... I think I need to work out. I want to go to a gym with a membership and all, but I don't have the time. I work from 9-6 and have no time in between. My next option is to purchase an elliptical machine. I think this might be good for both me and Dad, but it still comes at a slight price.

Well, I bet you all have been wondering where my art is. After all this is an art sketch blog. I have been negligent but here is something I've been working on!She is a shinigami girl. Although the original idea wasn't like this, I think i like this concept better. Although I find her eyes a little too cheesy or yellow... Any suggestions?

Morning Banana Diet Day 2

This is the second day of my diet, and so far nothing has happened...as can be expected.

Yesterday, my meals consisted of the (breakfast) banana, (lunch) some radishes, carrots with hummus, a bite of chicken and (dinner) small bowl of rice with cabbage and two pieces of meat and two clams.

I went to bed at 10:30 give or take, just because I was so exhausted I couldn't stay up another minute more. So was an hour and a half short of my expected time period. I got up at 6:00am and got ready for the day.

TGIF. I made breakfast for dad and washed all the dishes. His breakfast was a three egg omelet with red peppers, onions, garlic and pesto garnish with some melted Munster cheese coming with a side of cold chicken with a sauce of pesto and mustard. He thought the omelet was soft moist and delicious since I didn't let it sit once and beat it till done. The reason I'm making his food so nicely is because I want to eat it. Stupid banana.

Morning Banana Diet

So, I've just gotten back from Taiwan...and gained back all the weight I lost when I came home. That's right, gained back. So, in an effort to lose weight effectively and without a desperate self starvation method I have decided on the Morning Banana Diet.

The decision all started when I was watching youtube videos of fat people complaining about how depressed and upset they were about being fat. It was when I saw a Japanese person complaining about how if you are overweight in Japan you are fined and looked down upon. It is illegal for them to be overweight over there. So, what a lot of people do when they are overweight is the Morning Banana Diet. Since so many of the Japanese people are so thin I decided to try it as well. I mean they and I have very similar genetics being Asian and all.

Essentially what it is,
-eat a banana in the morning with some warm water
-Go about your other meals with ease, so eat whatever, but you cannot eat till your full. 7/10's full is best.
-Last meal is no later than 8pm (need four hours between eating and sleeping)
-End

I think I'll try this method for 2-4 weeks and see how it goes. If I don't start seeing some results, this blog will document my feelings and observations. I've already bought bananas and have eaten one this morning.

Post Gradution Blues...

This is a strange time in life, as it is for everyone leaving college with a liberal arts degree and little else in mind other than finding a job. I'm sure everyone is doing their best in this economy and I am grateful for everything I've gone through in college.

I'm going to miss all the experiences and friends I made along the way and I'll think fondly of all these memories. I can't help but notice how I've changed these last few years, gathering from what I've read in my past notes. I wonder why i even wrote notes... I'm so cheesy. Still, shouldn't let the trend die so easily.

Currently, I'm working for a newly opened Montessori in New Jersey. You can imagine my excitement (SARCASM). I've learned to control my fear of children, at least on the outside. Really though I am very nervous and easily irritated around them. There is no way I am ever going to be a teacher. No, I'm the secretary...and occasional helper. There are lots to do, since the director didn't do anything digitally and relied solely on his memory. I changed that and introduced Microsoft Office 2008 to them...been very busy updating everything and creating advertisements and e-mailing and office stuff. I suppose this is an okay job, i'm dedicated and making good money and taking care of Dad. Did I mention he's the owner?

There is so much drama working in a school. That much does not change. Whether it is working in the college art office, or a Montessori office. I do believe teachers are Drama queens.

This is also good in that I can work on my own art and come along quite well. The internet audience at conceptart has become my new critique'ers and I am taking them quite seriously.

Looking back, I think i can say that i have changed a lot. For one thing, i've gotten boring, serious and responsible. This is a slap of reality hitting me. I used to be crazy and fun! Damn I miss those days. I just remember having the time of my life. I won't mention specifics since I have no idea who will be reading this...but let's just say...not many girls liked me...at. all. I regret nothing.

Of course this all changed my Senior year when i met my wonderful boyfriend. At least he was wonderful.

I suppose all relationships hit a bump sooner or later, just didn't expect mine so soon. Maybe I made the wrong choice, I might have. I'm laid back, love doing new things, getting drunk, hanging with people and partying. He's strict, likes to stay home and play video games all day, eat at the same places and is kind of boring. I love him, and maybe i needed this influence in my life, but i feel like he's my parent, not by boyfriend. And I'm too young to feel like an old married gal. Plus he's always yelling at me and telling me what i've done wrong. Sadly, I really don't think this relationship will last much longer. He is the first man i have fallen in love with, but he makes me so unhappy. I feel like I've changed part of myself to please him. I hate doing that.

Sigh...anyway, I think I'll make some new goals for myself again for this new year!
-Help the school run well
-Get several FINISHED art pieces together!
-Finish deciding on a website background
-Finish website
-Find an art related job in a city
-Have FUN (go clubbing, party)
-Meet new people and hang out with friends as often as possible

My message today is not like my past jolly old messages. This one sucks. Because I don't know if i'll like this lifestyle.

New Monitor~~!!!

Because I felt super motivated by my recent purchase of awesome new monitor 23" I did this for fun!! Concept Art Contest is mine!!!!! MINE!!!

Goal take a tiny pixel video game pic and make it awesome! Here is my Cecilia

updated my snow girl

So the idea is that she tears apart her prey in a gruesome display. I changed the pose since it was getting boring... but now i don't know what do to with her clothes. Suggestions??

I can finally use the computers again!!

Alrighty then! I am sad so many of my friends have gone. Its hard to just come out of college and be expected to do something...so i will try to do something soon. Meanwhile, I will work on my artwork.
I've come to realize many of my subject figures are women...idealized women...that's bad isn't it.
This image I sort of want to use for my website background...although now I'm not so sure. I think I'll make my background more flashy and in simpler colors. For now I want to put some flowers in the back and make it a nice girly piece. Or should I?? Maybe I'll put dead bodies or fishes or something more interesting!!

Sketch of woman wearing thin lingerie. I originally wanted to add bird features, but then my girl beauty factor kicked in and here we have it. I think i'll want to keep this in B/W just because it looks nice. Of course I'll finish it! Any suggestions??

And finally, this is a CHOW piece I'm doing for conceptart its some Japanese folk story about a mysterious spirit in the mountains or something and it kills people. Still not sure about all the blood, but whatever.

Food

This week has been quite interesting and nice. Me and a friend have gone exploring Pittsburgh's finest hidden restaurants! Followed by child-like sense of explorations. :D

To start off with we went to the Nicky's Thai Kitchen which had the nicest decorations! They even had a garden outback. I had the Green Duck Mango Curry, which besides being delicious came with an amazing soup of broth flat noodles and parsley. Then we went to the Aviary :)

Square-cafe; a wonderful little breakfast joint that was decorated in the old Diner fashion. I had Green eggs and Ham, which was essentially three scrambled eggs mixed with pesto and a thick slice of ham (not the crappy hams you usually get, I mean a real ham!) and home fries on the side. Day complete!

Paris 66: this place was very interesting since I don't think I've ever had french food before. I was not disappointed! I had the Paris 66 signature dish which was swiss cheese, ham and egg with a mushroom and tomato dip on the side crepe along with a side salad. Yum!

This was followed by an incredible dessert we found next door by the name of Vanilla Pastry Studio. You know those cake shops that do custom jobs like Cake Boss and Ace of Cakes? Well it was essentially that, but cuter! The colors were mostly pink and a pastel green and it was very wonderful.

Today, I look forward to a Belgium meal...ahh i should bring a camera.

fairy thing update

Here is an update on the fairy and kids picture. Its sort of like Peter Pan, but fucked up. Instead of the fairy giving them her dust, she's feeding them "magic honey" what's going to happen eh?

Failure!!!

I have decided that this piece is a failure and I won't continue with it anymore. It was good practice I suppose but nothing too significant that I have to complete it with.

If anyone has any ideas about what to add or something I'd gladly take some input.

random thoughts

The things I want...

-A two feet monitor

-New PC Computer with all programs

-A cat

-nice dresses or err just nice clothes

See I don't ask for much! The one thing that relates all of the things is MONEY! which I don't have much of...so poop.

I think I'll start dating again. Probably someone older and more mature. But then are older men more mature or more immature?? I'm sure they are more of something.

Yesterday, I was looking at Craigslist and found an interesting Personals: men seeking women. Not that I was posting or looking! I just think they're kind of funny sometimes... ahem! So anyway, it was this guy who wanted to be very rough and nasty during sex. It was really scary sounding and plenty of naughty words were exchanged. I thought, who the hell does this asshole think he is?! He added pictures and unfortunately he was pretty hot.

You may be wondering why I am mentioning these things on this post and it is because I cannot seem to stop thinking about stuff he said...

new update...

The wench looks kind of weird...but whatever. Here's what I've gotten so far for the pirate picture.

Here is some changes in the fairy.

weekend

Today went to a friend's house for a special dinner. It was very nice and we could all tell that he had spent a lot of time on the menu. Lobster bisque for appetizer and seafood lasagna followed by some chocolate cream mousse (or something of that sort). It was a pleasant evening spent with food and then a board game that lasted several hours...I haven't played a board game in years!

For next time we will be making dumplings and such.

fairy update

The sniffles...

I got sick working on things in the PC Cluster so now I am home resting for the day. I hope I get better soon since it is uncool to be home in the summer. However, I am drained from a series of drama that have been happening around me lately.

In the end I ended up sleeping on the couch. What the hell, I'm not a guy!

Its the summer I should have fun right? Of course I am also working a lot and trying to keep the house up to date since for some reason this week has been really weird and things are breaking without physical harm. Example is our cable box and the router. :P

more

Here is some color in the girl

pirate and wench

Here is a pirate and wench drawing I am currently working on. I'm thinking of adding more characters since it looks kind of boring.

more

So this one is a image of a fairy like creature I was thinking of making into a t-shirt. She will have leaves and berries or some small flowers in her hair and her skirt is something like a berry bush.

Summer Update!

So summer allows me to improve my projects, here are a few that I feel are in a good progress.

This particular project is both euphoric and violent. The imagery depicts a boy allowing a fairy like creature feed him some honey. However, the fairy coming out of the window looks creepy and evil. She is followed by smaller miniature fairies that carry the pots of magic honey, while in the background is a giant snout monster.